May 16, 2008
Do You Remember Audblog?
Devi's voice surprised me on the way to job two tonight.
I had downloaded several files of her singing acapella, years ago. I saved them in my iTunes library. Today one came up in random rotation.
Brought a big smile to my face.
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May 3, 2008
Real BDSM
Yeah, I practice BDSM in the bedroom. Mostly. I have a few friends in RL who know I am kinky. I don't talk with my parents about it. I prefer not to know about their sex life, and likewise I think sharing anything about mine would be creepy.
But for some reason, for some people, this disqualifies me from being a "true" BDSM practitioner.
But I ask you, is a gay man any less gay if he only sucks cock in the bedroom, if he doesn't talk about what he does with his parents or children, and if he tones it down at work?
I don't know. Maybe the homosexual community has angst like this, but I'm a breeder so I don't have any insight.
It just seems silly and misguided.
Real. Who are you to tell me what my real is?
Whatever.
I suppose I shouldn't let the discussion list trolls get to me.
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Dear "Community,"
You are driving me away.
The judgement and idealism is unrealistic and unnecessarily harsh.
We suck as a community.
All of us. Suck.
Please stop with the suck.
Love each other and learn from each other. Anything else is destructive.
Stop.
Please.
Stop.
[+] Sinner transgressed at 3:27 PM by speaking evil. :: 2 Submissives [+]
May 2, 2008
From the "In" Box
BV emailed out of the blue, today...
She sent a link to the video for a song called "Pray for Me," by SIXX:A.M. Yes, that Sixx! Apparently, he has been to hell and back...
The video is shot in black-and-white, and parts are NSFW. My favorite part is at the end, the last three or four shots. If you watch the video a second time, it puts the first sequence into a whole different light. It's deliciously evil.
I liked the lyrics, too. Dark is good.
I have to ask: Isn't that Jezebelle Bond?
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April 14, 2008
The "Glory Box"
A review of the beta FyreTV unit I received last week.
I heard about FyreTV about the time of the Adult Entertainment Expo. I believe I saw it first on Gizmodo, which mentioned the service was now in beta and accepting testers. What was I to do but to sign up? I figured, worst case, I would have to wait until it was a commercial product.
Two weeks ago I received an email asking me to confirm some personal information on the FyreTV web site. Once that was done, more communications confirmed my "Master-Beta" beta tester status. Another email announced a tracking number. Yay!
Last Monday I received the unit but it wasn't until Wednesday night that I had the time to devote to the installation.
Geek/Tech Part:
The box is quite small and light. Other than the labeling on the back for the various jacks it is all black. I would say it's roughly a third as wide as a traditional stereo or video component, and about half as tall. All that is visible on the smooth front is a red power light and an activity light. No logos. No names.
Set up was no more or less difficult than installing a DVD player, if your DVD player required an Ethernet connection. So, in my case, that necessitated some quick drilling to run some an extra network cable. My TV had available inputs so it was then only a matter of finding cables, of which I also fortunately had spares. There were some cables in the package for HDMI and left and right audio, but my TV was built before HDMI so I had to go with component video.The FyreTV unit also supports DVI output, but my one DVI input was already taken by my cable box. Definitely very nice to have options. S-video is the fourth alternative.
Also nice is that FyreTV supports wide screens. My TV has a 16:9 aspect ratio screen and I was able to select that on setup. This can be changed on-the-fly.
The one set-up "gotcha" for me was that the PIN number for the beta is not the PIN number for your personal account. I did not notice mention of that in any email communication or while I was creating my account at the FyreTV web site, but did I find the solution in their support forums.
Using the FyreTV:
It's in beta (as I may have mentioned) and even in the few days I have operated the device there has already been an update to the system. Everything is still subject to change.
As of this writing, there are about 175 movies on tap. During the beta period viewing those movies is effectively free and unlimited. They have promised a significant number of movies by launch, so I anticipate this should change dramatically.
You can search by title, studio, genre, actor/actress, and probably other ways I'm not remembering. The search is designed such that you can search across all titles, or you can add criteria to keep narrowing the focus. With 175 titles from 4 studios, today, this might not be as big of an issue. But if, as they promise, they increase selection to 20,000 titles, this will be paramount.
You can also browse through the covers of the videos as though they were DVDs. That interface is reminiscent of cover-flow on the Mac or in iTunes, but it's not as fluid. While there aren't detailed descriptions of each title, I think the cover art and title tell you as much as you really need to know. Once a title has been selected, you can choose to play from the beginning or you can select chapters from a thumbnail view.
I can tell you that we-who-are-kinky have not been ignored. While their breadth of title selection is not there yet, the categories already in place show there will be content that covers my various interests and pushes my hot buttons.
Also? This is not Cinemax. This is not R-Rated, NC-17, or unrated. It's explicit porn. Streamed to you over your broadband connection.
The picture quality and the response of the device is really damned good. Honestly I was surprised that the setup went so smoothly and that once I had my PIN number entered, the porn was streaming right away.
You can choose the video quality in a sort of a "good, better, best" arrangement. They equate the best to "DVD quality." While this is in principle true, my internet connection won't stream that much data that fast without artifacts and hiccoughs, but "Near DVD" looks really very good. I would say it looks much better than the highest quality recording on my Series2 TiVo. To date, my experience has been that once the video starts, it keeps playing.
The remote is OK. It seems that there is probably a better way to group the keys by function, but it does the job. Batteries were included, by the way.
The menus aren't as intuitive as an iPod or a TiVo, but again the service is in beta, so I doubt what I'm seeing today will be the final product. The issue I have is knowing which botton will take me back or up a level at which time. But I'm learning.
Features I haven't explored yet are the playlists and favorites. My understanding from the forums is that these are not "sticky" yet and still in development, so I am going to wait before I comment on those.
I'm happy to answer any questions, but if you are interested at all in the service then the web site is the place to go: FyreTV.com See also: Fyre TV FAQ
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April 12, 2008
Snow, Yet Still
As far into spring as we are, there are still vestigial snow drifts in the yard that have not melted away.
I've found myself at times imagining a cross between Narnia and Middle Earth. A Winter Witch has sent the continuous weather this way and her voice, the spell, is audible in the wind.
But even as the snow is still falling, there are flowers in the garden who insist they must reach for the sun and their green shoots have already come forth. And the snow melts where it lands.
I tell myself I wouldn't mind so much if it was rain, being the April showers that bring May flowers. The fact of the matter is that I want my yard to dry out and firm up. And I miss being in the sun.
[+] Sinner transgressed at 2:22 PM by thinking evil. :: 1 Submissive [+]
Rumors of My Demise
No, I'm Not Dead
Nor have I quit blogging.
I have been accused of that...
But I am still here.
[+] Sinner transgressed at 2:14 AM by blogging evil. :: 2 Submissives [+]
April 3, 2008
It Was the Soft Maddness
Or I don't know what it was.
Expression. Allure. Breaking free. It was a part of awakening to who I am.
It was the knowing and the secret. Whatever it was or wasn't, for whatever it could have been or could never be, it was a real thing. Not forgotten or swept away.
The universe is a different place than I imagined then, and the more I imagine, the more I find that it is. It is so much less now about the inside of my head, and so much more about creating my place and dreaming my destiny.
I do think in so many ways I have gotten so many of the things that I longed for in those days, and have moved past the things I thought were prisons. I have been able to let go of much of the broken-ness within. And I do think I that everything that has happened is part of the wisdom I have gained
Thank you for reading the words I wrote on the sky in the light of the moon, and the words I wrote elsewhere.
I can't thank you enough for the kind wishes. I wish for you the same--I see evidence of it in your life already.
Life for me is different now, too. Night turns into day. Winter turns into Summer. Simpler, better, and much more real. Much less about the wished for, and I am grateful. I live and love now in a home full of energy and color and warmth. I wouldn't have it any other way--won't give it up for the world.
I finally have a garden to tend, and Flowers to grow.
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March 22, 2008
Spring Has Sprung!
With a snow storm.
We didn't get nearly as much as some parts East of us, for sure. But most of our snow cover was gone before then.
I was thinking I might finally be done with the melting and the water running through my yard, but we will have more of that through the week at least.
I am really, really excited for the landscape to change from monochrome back to technicolor.
So much so that I wore shorts and a t-shirt to work today.
I'm a dork, I know.
But that's how I roll. ;)
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March 13, 2008
Over the Hump
Well, this week ended up not being as bad as I feared it could be. I have been slowly releasing the panic I've put myself through.
We made do with a stunningly small amount of cash and bus passes and car-pooling.
:: sighs ::
I feel like I can breathe again.
And, overall, things are looking good for the future.
I should be able to get my car worked on next week.
I took another night at the part-time job so that will mean more coming in next month.
And things are going to get better.
I am going to build a better budget and stop living paycheck to paycheck like I have most of my life.
Spring is coming. The Sun is shining warmly and rain is coming. The snow is only left in icy piles that freeze and thaw, freeze and thaw.
We're looking at doing much more gardening this year and I'm very happy about that.
And I have this weekend off. Praise the Gods!
Life is good, the universe is generous, and I have about me everything that I need.
[+] Sinner transgressed at 8:34 PM by revealing evil. :: 1 Submissive [+]
March 7, 2008
Drama: I Made More
Right while I'm reeling financially from the vet bills...
I went and rear-ended another car today, trying to get from one employer to another.
Yes, I have insurance and it's covered, but now I have to figure out when to fit in an estimate and when to get the work done. The deductible is pretty small, but I just don't even have that right now.
I'm fine, and the car is drivable, but I'm missing headlights on the passenger side and that's not too cool.
I'm not dead, so this is all making me stronger, right?
I'm pretty scared, but I will just handle things one at a time. That's all I can do.
[+] Sinner transgressed at 8:53 PM by revealing evil. :: 1 Submissive [+]
FetLife, for the Kinky
I just learned about FetLife today—I was tipped off by Venus. I liked what I saw and created a profile there. Friend me if you like, by all means.
It's a new network site, but the premise is adults, kink and fetish. It has a clean design and is still in development, but looks to me to be very promising.
Its simplicity is refreshing, It's not garish like MySpace or about how cool you are like FaceBook or all-business like LinkedIn. I have RL profiles on all of those and on Friendster, but those profiles are all Safe-For-Work.
I'm glad there are more places for adults. Tribe had such promise until they panicked about having kids on board. It's good and right to protect our children. But adults need and deserve a place where they can let loose, too.
Another kink-friendly option can be found at MyDungeonSpace.
Do you know of other sites?
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March 6, 2008
Yes, Sometimes I Make My Own Drama
Does this happen to anyone else?
I've had a few beers this week. I haven't had more than 2 on any one night, but between Friday and last night, I took care of a six-pack of porter.
What I have found to be true in my own case, is that typically within 24 to 36 hours of having alcohol, I will have some pretty intense anxiety and panic and often some depression.
The sad thing is that I often don't remember that it's going to happen, though it almost always does, until I am in the midst of it.
The good thing is that I can tell myself with certainty that it will pass. It always does.
The bad thing is I managed to pick on Flower today while I was in the thick of it, before I realized, "Oh, shit. It's the panic thing again."
Yeah.
Would really like to take that back, but I know I so cannot.
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