And Also

If I'm random or sketchy it's because I'm out of Adderal. I need to call a new doctor closer to home. I think I have to have an appointment scheduled before I can have a prescription written.

That's the thing I don't like about taking it. It requires me to be vigilant and organized—which runs counter to my usual reactive mode.

I feel like I'm making excuses. Truth is, the only thing I'm aware of at any moment in time are my thoughts and what I can see in front of me. That's so wrong—I mean it causes a lot of problems.

The Adderal helps more than anything I've tried yet. It's just that it wears off every day. And when I have to remember to do it, well... I guess I'm going to have to put a better system in place.