Black As My Soul: Guilt and Shame

January 27, 2004

Right now, I'm in mourning for the huge part of my life I have thrown away by giving in to my addiction.

I don't even know where to begin making things right with myself or with others in my life.

Maybe if I can get a handle on things I can move past all of the guilt.

I am overwhelmed with guilt. Maybe that's part of the problem. Or maybe feeling it is part of the solution. But whatever it is, I better find out.

Doc says I need to find a group to attend. I guess an hour group meeting is nothing compared to the five hours I gave away today.

I feel like such a shithead.

[+] Posted by Sinner, who was transgressing at the time (January 27, 2004 5:37 PM) by revealing evil. [+]