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May 18, 2004
I Don't Wanna!
But if I don't stop acting out... I'm going to lose this opportunity.
Because I can lose so much time so easily. And that almost always means lost sleep. Or time I could have spent making someone else know her importance in my life.
Or maybe that's the issue. But how would I know for sure. I've been so detached. Was I ever attached?
I know I did stuff because it seemed like the right thing to do.
I don't want to commit to a choice, because I don't want to be wrong. All the while simultaneously killing myself with indecision. Ugh.
Did I mention I forgot my meds at home this morning? Can't easily get to them, unfortunately. Might need to ask permission for a long lunch or something.
Ouch.
[+] Posted by Sinner, who was transgressing at the time (May 18, 2004 9:10 AM) by revealing evil. [+]
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If you don't make a choice, you'll never be wrong-- but then you'll never be right, either.
Sometimes making the right choice is worth the risk of making the wrong one.
There's a fine line between doing what you want and doing the right thing. Often they are the same thing. Conversely, sometimes they aren't. Remember that "should" doesn't always mean "right." You can create the life you want and love, but it will take risks and some losses. Lose what is least important to you. Keep what is most important to you. Decide which is which based on deep inner feelings, not surface ones. Don't let fear mix the two up. Trust yourself. Yen is absolutely right that making the right choice is worth the risk of making the wrong one. Best of all, you will have made a choice and that will help you make the next one and the next. Nothing is immutable, nothing is set in stone. And remember, you won't be set adrift alone just by making a choice. You have friends and people who love you dearly.
At great risk to myself esteem, I'm going to admit to not being 100% sure of what your talking about. But... old sayings are usually still alive for a reason: cowards die a thousand deaths.
You are probably in more pain making no decision at all than any making decision you could make.
If that makes any bloody sense at all...
rg