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June 29, 2004
I'm in SA.
I admitted pretty much everything to my sponsor today. Everything. I had to. I'm getting out of control and someone needed to know to be able to help me.
I've been told to stay off the internet for the rest of the night and not to engage in any activity which might lead to me acting out. Which is *any* time I'm on the internet.
Last night I left the modem cable plugged into the wall, so that much is no longer a secret from my wife. That road is closed for now.
Being without the internet, being without this infinite well of lust, is almost more than I can bear. I basically burst into tears when my sponsor said no more for the rest of the night.
I have to go because I really want to get off and it's not fun anymore.
If it means anything from an emotionally disturbed person, I love you.
I'll figure out the rest as soon as I can.
[+] Posted by Sinner, who was transgressing at the time (June 29, 2004 5:58 PM) by revealing evil. [+]
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I don't know if you will or should read this, but:
One Day at a Time!
Be well, Soulless. Take it all one step at a time.
Take care of yourself, sweetie. I hope you're doing okay, and I think 'bout you a lot. 'Cause I worry. *hugs*