Black As My Soul: "One Day, You Will Ache Like I Ache..."

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July 12, 2004

"One Day, You Will Ache Like I Ache..."

I hope not, actually.

I was just thinking, as my mind tends to wander off randomly at random times to pursue random—er, sexual—topics, that I have been really, really high on a drug high only once. It scared me, but I want to try it again. Probably dangerous for me seeing as I have addictive tendancies. But still, it's true.

However, the high I truly crave is sexual. I *crave* sex and sexual union.

Now, maybe I'm fooling myself with the union part, but I know of no other experience so engaging physically and emotionally. There is nothing like that thunderous moment of ecstacy. Nothing like the blissful aftermath and the closeness. Nothing.

I may misuse and abuse other things in other ways to cover the feeling of what I'm missing, but sexuality and my issues with it get right to the core. Why bother with anything else?

[+] Posted by Sinner, who was transgressing at the time (July 12, 2004 9:49 AM) by revealing evil. [+]