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March 3, 2005
Alive, Well, and Living in the Suburbs
About a week ago I went on a road trip. 15 hours each way. Left on Monday. Got back home In the early Friday AM. Best drive I ever took. Ever.
While I'm not about to do that sort of thing again right away… I would do it again in a second.
Mmm… Sweet peaches…
And then… home and a return to mundanity.
I had a talk with an excellent friend. I was thinking about quitting Strattera.
The real issue is my sexuality. Strattera fucks with that. In my opinion. But I'm looking for something to blame. I haven't felt very sexual of late and I really, really miss it.
Funny: You know how overwhelmed by lust I've claimed to be. I'm never happy, am I?
But she reminded me how happy I was when I began taking Strattera. Reminded me that I felt more motivation. Reminded me that I found it easier to remember things and take care of them in a more timely way.
Therefore, it still contributes to my sense of well being. Dammit.
I miss the rock-hard and instant-on erections I used to have. I'm 36 now and I'm told it's normal for things to change for me. But I don't like it. Not one bit.
My opinion is that Strattera aggrivates this.
I know I could possibly take another pill to counter-act this, but I honestly have no desire to do it.
Maybe my opinion would change if I tried it, but I feel like it takes away some of my humanity. So I should suffer? I don't know. I suppose not. I feel so irrational.
So I haven't posted in the past few days because my sleep schedule has been completely topsy-turvy. And I haven't felt sexy or sexual at all.
Until tonight.
At work.
I was bored out of my skull. Slow retail will do that.
I had some dark fantasies. I wondered. How much pain would you take? For me?
You're such a good girl! So good to me!
I'll tell you more.
I promise.
I just want you.
[+] Posted by Sinner, who was transgressing at the time (March 3, 2005 3:02 AM) by revealing evil. [+]
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