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January 18, 2006
Double Lives
How many do you have?
I mean, really. How many people do you have in your life that do not know everything about you?
It's not that one spends his time spinning lies as much as he generates subterfuge and distractions, or simply withholds information.
The more I live, the more I see this as a requirement to live successfully in western-european-based cultures.
Show me how I am wrong on this.
It was really brought home to me this last weekend. One of my brothers asked me to be a sponsor for his newborn child's baptism. I accepted, of course, feeling honored that he would see me in such a role as a religious instructor. Really. Me.
I intend to enquire deeply into his expectations of me in this role, which I intend to follow. But I could never tell my brother that I can't be a Christian. And I would certainly educate his child on many paths. Not just one. But I won't tell my brother this either.
Other than you, my beloved reader, there are far too few in my life who I would share this information with. And I won't. My reasoning is not so much that I'm afraid to tell people I'm not Christian—or anything else, for that matter—rather, I don't think it would be beneficial to anyone. And also? I don't care for histrionics or come-to-Jesus discussions. Waste of time.
It's so un-fucking-believably stupid that people would take offense at me being who I want to be and doing what I want to do that I actively engage them in their illusions of who I am.
Isn't that evil?
[+] Posted by Sinner, who was transgressing at the time (January 18, 2006 3:57 PM) by thinking evil. [+]
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I know exactly what you mean, I live a double life ~ I'm like you, I don't believe I should have to reveal how I worship ~ just to avoid the hysteronics of Christians. Of course, I also live a double life on the 'net as well, one of my blogs is the everyday, bitching cranky one and the one listed here is my exploration of my erotic side. Both are me, I just like to keep them separate!
As for evil..I don't think you are evil but I do think you're naughty (and I like that about you!)
Sometimes I get scared, paranoid really, that somehow in the near future Christianity will formally become the state religion... And we will finish statement by saying "If God wills it..."
I love being naughty. Evil-ly naughty.
You know how many I have...too many. But it's harder to merge them than to keep them separate. At least for now. Even if it is tearing my soul apart. I wish I were stronger.
Damn, I don't like thinking about that. Makes me all teary and sad :(
I think that we all do it.
I think complete and utter honesty is impossible--everyone would be alienated. So I feel less bad about it than before.
I'm sure I'm not the first human to come to this conclusion.
I love it when a man is evilly naughty ~ brings out the more perverse in me ;-)
I know that I have three different and distinct lives. It all depends on where I am as to which one I am. EVERYONE has a light and a dark side. Don't fret. It's natural.
Well, I love that I can show many facets of me here. While I don't do full factual disclosure of my life here, I do fairly full emotional disclosure.
Plus, I like to relate all of the sex-related stuff that goes on in my head here... This site is such a relief to me.
It's a relief for all of us darling. and speaking of relief, want some ;D
I have just the one life.
I'm just as devious, absent minded, untruthful, cunning, lusty, and self amused in the real world as I am here. I don't think I have the ability to live a second life, I'm too proud of the dark, damned things that I do.
I just won't admit to most of it unless asked.