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September 4, 2007
I Don't Want to Be "Soulless" Anymore
I don't want to change the blog, the URL, the writing style, or really anything else about the attitude.
But I do believe I have a soul.
I'm not walking around with a death-wish anymore, and I no longer wish to identify with being empty. Because I'm not. I'm living for myself and I am loving my life.
My name on this blog has always been Soulless, but I tried blogging for a few weeks or so as Mysterious QuietOne. Flower thinks this name is apt for me, and I tend to agree, knowing myself and my habits.
At one point, one commenter accused me of having a silver tongue, so I adopted it as sort of a last name. It has a nice alliteration. Soulless Silvertongue. Cute right?
But still, the Soulless and the Silvertongue to me have some negative connotations I don't like, such as being a liar. And this is one place where I learned to be more honest than anywhere, ever before.
Then I tried another affectation. I changed my adopted last name to Breedlove. It is a real surname, plus it's made of breeding and loving which I have to say are good things in my book. Silvertongue was reduced to an initial as a middle name. Soulless S. Breedlove is what I have called myself here for at least a few years.
I have thought of going back down to a single word again. I don't want to use any character names from Fiction because that's pretty common. And I don't necessarily want to use any names from any pantheon because I just don't see myself as being Uber-Dom. Dominant yes. Uber maybe later.
I have thought of calling myself Sinner. Because a lot of straight vanilla folks might see me that way and frankly I'm not ashamed of pleasure in my life. And then I get to keep the "S." So many good words start the same way. Succulent. Savory. Salacious. Sexual. Sinner because I don't think the vices necessarily are.
I have also thought of simply calling myself Breedlove. I do believe in the right to sex and sexual joy. And I believe in people having this together and creating from it.
I do feel there is something hatching or some sort of phoenix rising from the ashes, so I do feel it's time to shed a certain skin.
I'll keep you posted.
[+] Posted by Sinner, who was transgressing at the time (September 4, 2007 9:42 AM) by revealing evil. [+]
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How about SoulFull S. Breedlove? That way you get to keep all the good stuff without the bad connotations..
I will admit that as a fairly new reader, I wondered why you called yourself "soulless" since it was obvious to me it didn't fit. I thought for a while that it might have been tongue in cheek.
Surprisingly, I hadn't thought of that.
One thought I had was Själ. It's the Swedish word for soul. It speaks to a part of my heritage.
I'm still undecided.
How about Shameless? I think that might fit in certain circumstances. My definition of shameless fits you, you don't apologize or feel guilty about who you are. :) Just something to chew on, my dark prince.
Blessed be
Pnthrkitty,
That is indeed where I am at and where I would like to continue.
I am certainly pro-sex, pro-porn, pro-kink and pro-consensual acts, and it's true that I am not sorry.
I appreciate you saying so. Thanks!
Then we are shameless together my prince. :) Blessed be
Actually, not to rain on your parade, but the surname "Breedlove" actually is anglo-french meaning wolf killer, or wolf hunter.
Chuck,
Thanks for your comment. I had actually done some looking into the last name and to the rock bands and businesses that use the name on the web, and there are many.
At your suggestion I looked into the history of the name Breedlove--if 30 minutes with Google can be considered research.
I found several interpretations of the meaning of the surname Breedlove, including everything from somehow being derived from the word "bridle," to being derived from the Gaelic for broad hill, or as you suggest, Anglo-French for big "she-wolf" (a fierce protector of her young). Like many surnames, it could be a reference to a place, a profession, or a sort of amulet or indicator or strength and prowess.
Breedlove has been the front runner in my thoughts for my next pen-name. I mean no disrespect to your lineage by taking a literal interpretation.
I haven't come to any conclusions yet. I'm still trying on a lot of things. I haven't found the right fit.
~S