Black As My Soul: 274

« I'm Very Proud of My Baby Girl! | Home Page | Mistress Mandy »

January 28, 2008

274

I knew it was going to be a high number.

Seems like every time I get on the scale it's a higher number than it was the time before.

But basically, in 4 years I have gained almost 70 pounds from my WeightWatchers low of 205. 205 is when I gave in and felt that I couldn't watch Points anymore. I didn't want to track everything. I didn't want to weigh in every week.

For a while I thought I had stabilized below 230. I figured with the walking I was doing I could keep the rest in check.

But in the two years since that point, I have not exercised at all. My clothes are all fitting pretty tightly (when they do fit), and my knees are protesting more.

I don't like it. I feel more than a little defeated.

I don't want to diet, but I do want to change.

[+] Posted by Sinner, who was transgressing at the time (January 28, 2008 2:43 PM) by revealing evil. [+]

3 Comments

Rob said:

So..you need a diet buddy...I say diet 'buddy' because you're the Dominant so probably won't appreciate being told off..whereas I'd be pretty happy for someone to say, 'No, you can't have that. Put that back in the fridge. Now!'
I might look mad about that, but underneath I'm actually not.

But YOU need a diet buddy..someone that says, 'No you can't have the Doritos, but I've peeled you a lovely apple, and look at it, I've cut it into pieces for you. Enjoy!'

It's just a subtle difference, but it IS important.

You can do it! Oh, and where are your sneakers? Time to dust them off.... LOL

Rob

Rob,
Well, timing and money are the issue for the most part. It is the wicked-cold depth of Winter here. I am willing to walk year-round, but tonight as I write this the temperature is -11 Fahrenheit, on the way to an anticipated -16 and wind chills right now are greater than -30 so... for the moment anything outdoors is right out. I'm willing to brave 15 degrees for a work-out, but anything below that hurts too much for too long. It's hard to warm up at all, even with proper layers.

And I do enjoy healthy foods, it's just that I seem to enjoy lots of food, so I need to look at my portions, too.

I'm not prepared to make drastic changes, but I am prepared to change.

~S

January 29, 2008 2:06 AM

sweetlikepoison said:

feeling you on this. i've steadily gained weight since high school 10years ago, and i am now 45 to 50lbs heavier. seems i can never push it off. i'm lazy.

lolidoll,
I would hate to think that you're beating yourself up over over "shoulds" and "oughts."

I'm pretty sure you're not really lazy.

~S

February 2, 2008 11:00 AM

pnthrkitty said:

I know the feeling and sympathize. I have just acquired a personal trainer to get me back in the shape I want to be in, which needless to say is not the shape of a pear. It's not a cheap route, but this guy is handling everything. The workout routine, the meal planning, the only thing he's not doing is shoving the food down my throat. Wish me luck! I'll be sending happy (groaning) workout thoughts your way. :)

pk,
Thanks for that!

I really did like working out in the clubs when I could--right now it's just not an option. Still I enjoy walking and 'cycling, so as the weather warms here I hope to do a lot more if it. I especially miss biking, We have some wonderful trails in the Minneapolis St. Paul area.

Hmmm. Makes me wonder about BDSM in the gym... I know there's plenty of bad straight porn on the topic... But if you had to complete your regimen to the pleasure of your Dom or Domme...

But I digress.

I think a trainer is a wonderful way to go to get results. And especially if the trainer is good at getting you past your weaknesses, or is helping you deal with them in a healthful fashion.

Best wishes to you!

~S

February 3, 2008 10:22 AM

« I'm Very Proud of My Baby Girl! | Main | Mistress Mandy »

January 28, 2008

274

3 Comments

Sinning

Chronicling

Syndicating