"Sinner transgressed by speaking evil." Category Archive
June 28, 2008
I Like to Watch Your Expression
As I enter you.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 6:14 PM :: 3 Submissives [+]
June 23, 2008
We Lost a Good One
Shit
Piss
Cunt
Fuck
Cocksucker
Motherfucker
Tits
We need to keep paying attention and asking questions.
Thank you for all of the laughs, George.
Rest in peace.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:49 AM :: 6 Submissives [+]
May 3, 2008
Real BDSM
Yeah, I practice BDSM in the bedroom. Mostly. I have a few friends in RL who know I am kinky. I don't talk with my parents about it. I prefer not to know about their sex life, and likewise I think sharing anything about mine would be creepy.
But for some reason, for some people, this disqualifies me from being a "true" BDSM practitioner.
But I ask you, is a gay man any less gay if he only sucks cock in the bedroom, if he doesn't talk about what he does with his parents or children, and if he tones it down at work?
I don't know. Maybe the homosexual community has angst like this, but I'm a breeder so I don't have any insight.
It just seems silly and misguided.
Real. Who are you to tell me what my real is?
Whatever.
I suppose I shouldn't let the discussion list trolls get to me.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 3:46 PM :: 9 Submissives [+]
Dear "Community,"
You are driving me away.
The judgement and idealism is unrealistic and unnecessarily harsh.
We suck as a community.
All of us. Suck.
Please stop with the suck.
Love each other and learn from each other. Anything else is destructive.
Stop.
Please.
Stop.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 3:27 PM :: 3 Submissives [+]
April 3, 2008
It Was the Soft Maddness
Or I don't know what it was.
Expression. Allure. Breaking free. It was a part of awakening to who I am.
It was the knowing and the secret. Whatever it was or wasn't, for whatever it could have been or could never be, it was a real thing. Not forgotten or swept away.
The universe is a different place than I imagined then, and the more I imagine, the more I find that it is. It is so much less now about the inside of my head, and so much more about creating my place and dreaming my destiny.
I do think in so many ways I have gotten so many of the things that I longed for in those days, and have moved past the things I thought were prisons. I have been able to let go of much of the broken-ness within. And I do think I that everything that has happened is part of the wisdom I have gained
Thank you for reading the words I wrote on the sky in the light of the moon, and the words I wrote elsewhere.
I can't thank you enough for the kind wishes. I wish for you the same--I see evidence of it in your life already.
Life for me is different now, too. Night turns into day. Winter turns into Summer. Simpler, better, and much more real. Much less about the wished for, and I am grateful. I live and love now in a home full of energy and color and warmth. I wouldn't have it any other way--won't give it up for the world.
I finally have a garden to tend, and Flowers to grow.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:40 AM [+]
February 18, 2008
"It's Full of Stars"
My infinity is only getting brighter, more vast, and more fertile with life and possibility.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 9:44 PM :: 3 Submissives [+]
January 7, 2008
Happy Birthday, My Flower
I couldn't do everything for you that I wished to do, but I'm really happy we got to spend the day together.
I love you deeply.
~Your Wicked One
[+] Posted by Sinner at 8:00 PM [+]
December 31, 2007
Celebrations
We baked a ham overnight last night, setting the alarm early to check on it. It filled the house with its smoky aroma.
Morning napping turned to love-making.
Turned to making breakfast together and sipping hot coffee.
Today we will travel a few hours through rural Wisconsin to visit family. With our ham cargo in the trunk and our three puppies in the back seat.
I am reconnecting, reconnected.
Cheers, my love. Skoal, baby!
Here is to 2008 bringing dreams to fruition.
Happy New Year!
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:08 PM [+]
December 23, 2007
You Have to Heal Your Own Pain
That is the bottom line.
I'm sure I have no idea what you're going through. On the same token, nothing I do or say is going to heal you. You have to heal. You.
I can leave a trail of breadcrumbs.
I can tell you that in this very moment, you are safe from harm. No one is hurting you. You always have this moment. No one can take that from you.
I can tell you that no one understands. Your path and your experience is your own and is priceless. Other people have faced similar issues and may have a perspective to offer. But no one you can trust has "The Answer." You're on your own.
I can tell you that you have no idea how profoundly the decisions you make can affect another life. How little your pain is felt by others and how much. How one stray word can maim or uplift. You don't know. You can't know. And what's more, you can't control it even if you did.
I can tell you that you have to own up to what you've done to get you here. Other people have hurt you. That's a given. So what are you going to do about it? It only matters what you do about it.
I can tell you that you can't run fast enough or far enough. You can't get high enough or drunk enough or fuck enough. Your problems will wait. Avoiding them gives them power over you.
I can tell you it takes more energy to subvert your problems than to face them.
I can tell you that time heals nothing. Not really. The edge or the sting goes away, but not the ache. Not unless you address the problem. Or you can release it. Your choice. But you have to make the choice.
I can tell you that sometimes holding your pain close is less scary than making a change you need to make. If that's what you're doing, be honest with yourself and recognize your own responsibility.
I can tell you that vengeance is empty. Hurting someone else because you hurt resolves nothing. If you hurt, the hurt exists only inside you. Look within.
I can tell you that if someone makes you angry, that's a good opportunity to check yourself. What is that person doing that reminds you about something you dislike about yourself? What is that person doing that isn't "fair?"
I can tell you that you shouldn't believe everything you think. Especially the negative stuff. Especially what you tell yourself about yourself. That voice in your head is a tool to help you modify behavior, but it is not you. It may very well be wrong and or outdated. Change the recording. Only you can do this for yourself.
I can tell you that there is no perfect time to take action. Except in retrospect. You can see lost opportunities for the rest of your life. If there is something that is worth doing, it's worth doing now.
I can tell you that this universe is an amazing, beautiful and generous place. Opportunities are constant. Change is constant. Open your eyes. Open yourself to possibility.
I can tell you the most unexpected people in the world will bend over backwards to help you.
I can tell you that you can't have help until you ask for it.
I can tell you that you need to be asking for help.
I can tell you that none of this matters until you're ready for it.
I can tell you that you will know when you're ready. No sitting on the fence. You're in or you're not.
I can tell you that it is a decision. I can tell you that at one point, you will have had enough.
I can tell you that until it's the bit of information you need, it all sounds like psychobabble or tripe. And I'm just some guy online. Whatever.
And that's why I don't leave it in your comments.
Maybe you're just venting and it isn't as terrible as I interpret it. Fundamentally I respect that your path is not the same as mine. I would not dream of trivializing what you're going though.
These are some things that have had value to me, so I'm sending them out into the aether. What I hope is that someday you will see a ray of light.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 10:52 PM :: 6 Submissives [+]
December 9, 2007
You Honor Me. Seriously.
I've gotten stage fright of late.
A few links from popular sites have each given me about ten-days-worth of traffic in a few hours. And I am thrilled that so many people liked what I wrote a few days ago.
But I am no Fleshbot, no Erosblog, no YouPorn, no Bondage Blog, or no Spanking Blog. Those sites drive traffic, but with the exception of the last two sites, the people clicking through to me are mostly looking for pictures or videos. And those are just not my mediums. The majority of visitors click in, see no hard-core porn (and I dare call this a sex blog!), and click back out. One in ten will click another link. One in fifty or one per hundred will click more than one of my archive pages. Click the SiteMeter link graphic in the right column and see for yourself.
This web site is just my way of adding my voice to the chorus or of shouting into the wind. I write what I feel compelled to write. While I now have an agenda, I never started this site with an eye to make money or to sell products. There is not now nor was there ever a business plan. With regard to this site and this pen name, I doubt seriously there ever will be.
I have tried affiliate links with Amazon for several years because I have given them plenty of my own money. To date, I have not reached any threshold that would pay. The amount I would need to reach before they will send a check is $10. My gross earnings to date are $0. So I've given up on that. No other business or site I have linked is an affiliate link. I just thought the site was cool. If they do not wish for me to continue linking, I would remove any reference without question or hesitation. Occasionally I see people click from their tracking pages wondering "Black As My What? Who?"
With that said, I wouldn't even know where to begin to charge for a link or an ad. I don't even know if it is something that the terms of service for my ISP would allow. Further, I haven't registered for a business license or Tax ID number. I'm just not ready to take that step.
It just doesn't feel right.
I'm not trying to be wrong-headed or disrespectful, or stupid. Believe me, I have agonized over how to handle this.
This site is personal and a labor of love. No more, no less.
With gratitude, I must respectfully decline requests for ads, links or other placement.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 8:42 PM :: 2 Submissives [+]
November 22, 2007
Thanksgiving
For all of the ways you celebrate my lust.
For all of the ways you make me feel like a man.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 9:00 AM :: Submit. [+]
October 24, 2007
Appropriation Is Not Flattery
I was really disappointed to read on Neeraja's site that one of her posts appeared as a new entry on another blog. What makes me feel culpable is the sense that I could have provided an avenue for one to copy the other.
So, I have to say it: Never take someone's words as your own.
If you were inspired, comment on the author's post. If you want to publicize it, quote a meaningful piece, but provide proper context and attribution. Link back to the original post. Hell, if another site led you there, credit them too!
Copying posts entirely is wrong on so many levels, never-mind the copyright, Copyleft or Creative Commons issues.
I have had many of my stories re-published on a writing website, which I am not completely happy with, but at least the person who did it had the tact of including my name as the author and a link to my site.
See also:
README
etiquette @ cafemama
Ten Tips...
Google has links to more opinions.
Any questions?
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:02 AM :: 2 Submissives [+]
October 15, 2007
"Dance, Monkey! Dance!"
In retrospect, it seems like that's what you were saying to me.
I remember now, thank you.
I remember thinking I had to please you. That just for the asking, randomly, you could ask me to please you and sate your every desire.
You who came to me, wanting me to do my Dom trick or my Dom show or whatever it was that you thought I was and that I did.
You came to me, yet you told me that I couldn't, wasn't, didn't.
I thought I could try harder. Then I could. Or you could, or whatever the fuck you thought was supposed to happen.
I remember now.
And I know now why I burned out.
Here is my treasure: you gave me boundaries.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 8:46 PM :: 2 Submissives [+]
October 7, 2007
Damned Spam
I delete spam swiftly. Occasionally that results in accidents and I kill a comment I had intended to keep.
I accidentally deleted a legetimate comment on the previous post. Oops! I'm sorry!
Please feel free to post it again if you like?
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:55 PM :: Submit. [+]
September 30, 2007
Nome de Plume Nouveau
Many of you got to know me as Soulless, and, for you, I may always be that. I can accept and understand that.
I chose the name 5 years ago because I was so very depressed and I felt so very wrong for falling in love with a woman who was not my wife, and for wanting so much more in my life than my (now ex-) wife would tolerate.
And so I felt intolerable and wrong and I blamed myself for everything.
Well I know better, now.
And I am a lot more accepting of my own desires and the things I want in my life. This name-change is an external acknowledgment of internal changes you've seen here over time.
I live with an amazing woman who loves porn as much as I do, who knows more about BDSM than I do, and who sees me as a man she would like to have a family with.
So I don't have to be apologetic: "Well, I don't have a soul, so that's why I am how I am..."
In the eyes of many of my contemporaries in American culture, I am a sinner. However, I do not feel spiritually bereft, I do not feel the need to go to a confessional, nor do I feel the need to apologize.
When I found the definition of the word sinner that I mentioned earlier, it finally clinched for me a new label I felt good about applying to myself.
And so it is. I have changed my name here to Sinner.
Over time, I will be modifying or dropping other old accounts to reflect this.
Please stay in touch.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:10 PM :: Submit. [+]
August 24, 2007
For Flower
We can fix anything together.
We will make amends with our pasts.
With time we can have what we want.
The things we want take work and dedication.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 9:45 AM :: Submit. [+]
P03t to the 355
I'm glad you're away from the giant. No doubt he will cast a long shadow in your life, but a shadow can't really hurt you.
I do not believe your muse is gone, rather I believe she is lying in wait. She will make you do the craziest things. Let her. Do not be afraid.
It warms my heart that you have a boy who you can be yourself with.
That is everything.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:34 AM :: 1 Submissive [+]
August 1, 2007
A Bridge Fell
Fortunately, I was not on it or anywhere near it.
My condolences to anyone affected. The survivors are all accounted for. Now they begin the recovery work.
Follow the story here and here.
Apologies for the terse post. I don't want to do any injustice to the insanity of the situation or say anything that hasn't already been said one hundred times in the media.
There really aren't words.
No one expects the bridge to drop.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 7:53 PM :: Submit. [+]
July 21, 2007
I Know You're All Reading Harry Potter
Just tell me who dies and how much room there is for either spin-off books and movies, or a heretofore unplanned 8th novel.
Hats off to BoingBoing for possibly the funniest Harry Potter article headline since the release of book 7: Harry Potter Dies on Page 132
[+] Posted by Sinner at 10:13 PM :: 6 Submissives [+]
June 25, 2007
In The Future
I predict:
In the future, you will have a jet pack that will take you anywhere you want to go cheaply and quickly. But you will be upset when you find out how bad this form of travel messes up your hair.
I predict:
You will gain notoriety in your chosen form of expression. This will not be instant, but it will still surprise you.
I predict:
You will regret not doing some things you have always wanted to do.
I predict:
You will become comfortable in your own skin. You will know that you made decisions and acted when you were ready, and not a moment before.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 7:03 PM :: Submit. [+]
June 16, 2007
A Few Words Aren't Going to Change the World
I've seen and heard a lot of people writing recently about abuse, attacks, addiction and victimization.
I have, too. Plenty.
Everyone processes grief uniquely. There are probably some normal stages that many people go through, but you are who you are and you know (or you will know) when you are ready to move on.
With regard to abuse and victimization, for most of you reading this, it's in the past. Whatever happened to you was unfair. Whatever happened to you was brutal and inhuman. But, whatever happened to you is in the past.
Whatever happened to you is in the past.
What you do about it today is not the fault of whoever wronged you.
Whatever you do today is the result of decisions you make.
Learn from your life.
Protect yourself appropriately.
The past only has control of the future in one circumstance: when you let it.
Were you are victim? Were you abused? Recognizing it is one thing.
Is there anything you can do about it now? Seriously.
Do anything you can, but as for the rest, let it go.
The actions of others are the responsibility of others. They speak volumes about the others. They do not define you. They are not you.
Be who you are.
Be open to the opportunities in front of you.
Be kind to yourself.
Breathe.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:24 PM :: 5 Submissives [+]
April 8, 2007
I Hate to See the Good Ones Go
Lives change. 'Blogs change.
But I wish you happiness.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:04 PM :: Submit. [+]
March 17, 2007
Sláinte
I love you, Flower!
[+] Posted by Sinner at 5:26 PM :: Submit. [+]
March 16, 2007
To Comment or Not to Comment
Words are so frustrating at times.
I always worry that I said too much, or used words which I will later discover lead to a conclusion different than I intended.
I never mean harm or offense.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 10:02 PM :: 2 Submissives [+]
January 1, 2007
Peace. Love. Joy.
I hope the new year brings you peace, within and without.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 3:20 PM [+]
December 29, 2006
On This Day in History
A Poetess was born.
Happy birthday!
[+] Posted by Sinner at 10:45 AM :: Submit. [+]
December 25, 2006
Merry Christmas, Baby!
"You sure do treat me right…"
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:21 AM :: Submit. [+]
November 16, 2006
Serendipity
Nothing on the web ever really dies.
Things move from server to server, page to page.
Words and images wax and wane in popularity.
But when you want them, and even when you're not looking, they come back.
Here's looking at you.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 10:26 PM :: Submit. [+]
October 28, 2006
I Love to Whisper in Your Ear
Filthy.
Slut.
Whore for cock.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 10:01 PM :: 6 Submissives [+]
October 15, 2006
Dear Bored People,
I don't care who you are.
If you are "bored," do not post.
Anything.
I don't want to know what you look like when you are bored, either. Although there's a chance I look just like that while wading through your shit.
There's the old adage that if you are bored, you are quite possibly also boring.
When you announce you are bored, I immediately lose interest.
Take some responsibility.
Shut the fuck up.
Disclaimer: This is directed to some people posting on large lists, but it has applications more broadly.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:08 AM :: 2 Submissives [+]
October 12, 2006
Emailing My Entries
It just occurred to me that for quite a while I had been emailing my entries on this journal to a select audience—
There were issues of privacy, secrecy and firewalls.
But at some point recentIy I forgot to keep it up.
If you want me to, I still can.
Just say the word.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 9:26 AM :: Submit. [+]
September 24, 2006
Speaking of Pentacles
I wear a ring with pentacles all around it. The point at the top of the star is inverted in every other instance. No matter which way I wear it or which angle it is viewed from, you can see what you want to see. Black or white. Sacred or profane. I love this.
It's an old, old symbol. We've been told in the 20th century that it represents black magic and Satan. It's marketed to us in religious indoctrination and horror films. In the 19th century the inverted pentagram represented Christ in his mission on earth, and was a symbol used in and on Christian sanctuaries. Astronomical lore shows this is the figure traced in the sky by the planet Venus if you look at its position in the sky once every 484 days.
Lately I've been interested in cycles, and the power that is inherent in the keeping of time.
And I feel like I'm on to something.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 6:25 PM :: 5 Submissives [+]
June 14, 2006
Contact Form
I haven't posted my email address on the front page in an effort to reduce spam.
I always try to reply to all comments in comments. I think it's more fun for readers to see the evolution of the conversation. After all, if the post was public, there's no reason my replies can't be.
However, sometimes a reader just wants to have a private conversation, and that's cool. I will leave this post for those circumstances. There will be a "Contact Me" link on the front page at the top under "About Sinner." If you comment on this post, I will know you want to get in touch with me. I will only reply to this post in email.
Some notes before you write:
- I am not poly, nor do I swing. I am in an exclusive, monogamous relationship.
- I am not an online dom. I only play with Flower.
- I do not buy, sell or otherwise trade links. This blog is purely personal. I link to sites that I like. I may like yours. By all means, introduce yourself.
- I do not wish to be addressed formally as a Dom, but I respect that you may be bound by protocol.
My email address is sinner. You can send email to me at this domain.
I do IM. My alias on Yahoo is without.repenting, on AIM it's withoutrepenting.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 10:06 AM :: Submit. [+]
Funny Thing
I… Well… You're not the first to suggest a harem…
[+] Posted by Sinner at 7:37 AM :: 2 Submissives [+]
June 12, 2006
Crickets
I figure you assume I've gone off the deep end, which is why no one is commenting or reading in the past few days.
I know. You just come here for my dirty mind.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 3:29 PM :: 11 Submissives [+]
May 17, 2006
Poetess, I Do Remember the Dream
I still like being the mysterious quiet one.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:45 AM :: Submit. [+]
April 25, 2006
Yes, Poetess
I still read every post.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 2:23 AM :: Submit. [+]
March 16, 2006
Code Names
My username is still to keep me secret, even though more and more people in my life know both my username and my given name.
The reasons for keeping my code-name are different now, but it has become a comfortable cloak in which to travel the night. It has granted passage to places I could never otherwise have gone.
It allowed me to meet you.
And I am grateful.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 9:17 PM :: 5 Submissives [+]
December 31, 2005
Bonne Année
Happy New Year, My Love!
[+] Posted by Sinner at 5:04 PM :: Submit. [+]
December 20, 2005
Password Protected
So if you're linking to me from a site that's password protected, does that mean you don't want me to know what you're saying about me? ;)
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:01 AM :: Submit. [+]
December 19, 2005
"Man Fragrance Spray"
It's perfume, you mother fuckers!
It's fucking perfume.
I got your fucking "spray" right here.
Man fragrance. Yeah, that's attractive.
Idiots.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:29 AM :: 2 Submissives [+]
December 15, 2005
Because There Is Nothing That Feels More Masculine
Nothing in the world,
More than my cock in your pussy.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 4:09 PM :: Submit. [+]
December 2, 2005
Seriously?
I'm pretty sure she does what ever she wants!
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:11 PM :: Submit. [+]
November 28, 2005
How Could Anyone Be Jealous of What We Have?
Oh… Wait.
Yeah, I could see that. ;)
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:27 PM [+]
November 24, 2005
Happy Thanksgiving!
Baby, I know what I'm thankful for!
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:27 PM :: Submit. [+]
October 2, 2005
My Sub-Space Girl
How I long to sink my teeth into your flesh and roll you.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 2:35 PM :: 5 Submissives [+]
September 12, 2005
Baby
I've been thinking a lot about making you come hard.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 3:58 PM :: 5 Submissives [+]
August 7, 2005
I've Always Wondered
So I figured I might as well ask:
How did you find my site?
[+] Posted by Sinner at 3:43 AM :: 19 Submissives [+]
July 31, 2005
Poetess,
I have always treasured the few glimpses you have gifted me with. I always want for more.
You know that.
+++
Your words are full of pain.
Part of me wants to take it from you. To take you to a place where it can't reach you, even if only temporarily…
I don't know you that way at all.
But I wonder how your hair would feel in my fist. If your eyes would open wide. If that would reach you.
Would you feel it?
Would you feel the pain for me?
Because pain can be a beautiful friend—but you have to feel it.
Will you?
+++
BlackBook Magazine No 39, Summer 2005, Page 112. Photograph like some you’ve taken.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:57 AM :: Submit. [+]
July 16, 2005
Backslider
The lyrics are perfect.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 7:03 AM :: 1 Submissive [+]
And I Want
It was like a lightning bolt from the blue.
Of course!
I added Want by Recoil to the Black + Red mix
I'd like to give a shout out to Dirty Whore, who introduced me to that excellent track a few years ago.
It, um, fit right in.
The Black + Red compilation on my iPod is currently as follows:
- Front 242: Welcome to Paradise
- Madonna: Justify My Love
- Recoil: Want
- Karen Finley: Tales of Taboo
- Lords of Acid: I Sit On Acid
- Cure: Fascination Street
- My Life With the Thrill Kill Kult: Shock of Point
- Front Line Assembly: Mental Distortion
- KLF: What Time is Love?
- Front 242: Quite Unusual
- Madonna: Justify My Love [The Beast Within Mix]
- Yello: Domingo
- Book of Love: Tubular Bells
- Book of Love: Pretty Boys + Pretty Girls
- 'Thrill Kill Kult: Kooler Than Jesus
Noticeably (and sadly) missing are the Moev and 101 tracks that are on the cassette I dubbed circa 1992.
101 came either from a collection of Acid House singles that are on a record I have yet to digitize, or I got them originally from my (then) gay–upstairs–neighbor who might have had a CD from the This Is The New Beat series. Which I cannot find anywhere. Yet.
The Moev tracks also have yet to be digitized. I might buy a used CD. It's too bad I can't buy an MP3 online. Because I would. I want them so bad I would pay double what iTunes charges. Do you hear that, Nettwerk? Hello?
Anyway. Sorry I keep talking about that mix. I love it deeply and I keep listening to it.
It's oddly a very reasurring and resonant place for me.
I'm going to burn a new disc with the new track order.
If you want a copy, I'll burn one for you.
The price will be three nude photographs of your person in my gmail.com email box. My ID there is sou11355.
Give me a snail mail address and three images of you.
No real names are necessary in this exchange.
And just to clarify:
The images would be for my eyes only, unless you state otherwise.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 5:03 AM :: 4 Submissives [+]
July 14, 2005
Even When I'm Quiet
It doesn't mean I'm not thinking about you.
…
I have been working at one job or another every day since Saturday, and will have to keep working through this coming Saturday.
And yep—If you go to the bookstore I work at, I will be on hand in the early morning hours of July 16th. So you can get your copy of the book you reserved six months ago. Yes, I do mean the next Harry Potter title.
No, we don't get to read it early.
Yep, it's already in our back room.
No, you can't get yours before 12:01 am. Do not bother asking. I don't care who died/is dying/is giving birth/who you are. Release dates and times are contractual. The repercussions are economic. If we violate the release date, the entire chain could lose the ability to carry the next Harry Potter book until several weeks after it is released. Thati s a potential loss of millions of dollars. We're not going to risk it for you. It's simple.
Don't get impatient with us. We're working way outside normal store hours. We don't want to be there any more (or less) than you, but we'll be there for hours after you leave.
Please wait your turn in line. And have your cash or plastic ready. Please do not write a check. Please, God. They take forever to authorize. Please stop writing checks at retail.
Also? Don't complain about the prices. It's a special event. The Harry Potter stuff of course will not be cheap because the teaming masses of kids will beg for it. No one at the store gets to set prices. The most effective form of protest is to simply leave it in the store. Yep, your kids will not like you for a few minutes. They'll forget in a day or two.
I'd like to be happier about the whole thing, but it's a job.
We have the good fortune of having an item on hand that a lot of people want to buy at the same time. We have some special things in place and there will be freebies for a few lucky folks.
That's really all I know until I get to work tomorrow.
Maybe I'll see you there?
I'll wink.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:34 PM :: Submit. [+]
July 11, 2005
Troublemaker
You're altogether too encouraging.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:37 PM :: 2 Submissives [+]
July 9, 2005
My Dear Customers:
GET OFF
THE FUCKING
PHONE
YOU
RUDE
FUCKS!
Ahem.
What can I do for you today?
[+] Posted by Sinner at 3:46 PM :: 1 Submissive [+]
June 30, 2005
Oh, Fer Fuck's Sake!
Well let me say first that I get it. I hate it when people get my name wrong.
I think I fixed your link. But in your banner, the site name is in ALL CAPS…
Did I link to anyone else incorrectly?
Bring it.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:47 PM :: 2 Submissives [+]
June 27, 2005
Attention: Women In Pink
Please stop having large breasts!
It's very distracting while I'm trying to be professional.
Thank you.
Counterpoint from the right–brain:
MMMMMMMMM
[+] Posted by Sinner at 9:42 PM :: 1 Submissive [+]
June 25, 2005
We'll Always Have the Wrong Reasons
What I want now:
- Several long strands of hemp rope
- Scantilly clad partner
- Several hours of play time
But I have to work tonight. :(
After, I'm going to hang out with one of my best friends.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 5:59 PM :: Submit. [+]
June 15, 2005
I Must Admit
I jealously resent that you know how to use colour, and that you used it in a way that I wanted to—before I began to do some similar work myself.
Hmph.
Eating flowers out of spite… Now wouldn't that be something!
Eating your flower…
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:28 AM :: 9 Submissives [+]
June 14, 2005
It Does Something to Me
When I hear your cries.
It makes me want you more.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 2:58 PM :: 1 Submissive [+]
June 2, 2005
My Good Little Girl
I want to pull your hair.
And fuck you silly.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 4:57 PM :: 4 Submissives [+]
May 16, 2005
I Am Another You
You understand, I forsook a marriage because I fell in love with an idea, a moment, an idol. I still have moments when I fear this ghost, but I know her name—and that gives me a little power back.
My body changes around me, but in my brain I know how I felt when I was 25, and when I was 17. And those times felt a lot like now. Time has given distance, but the past is as close as I want it to be.
I personally do not believe that the inner person must match what the outer calendar dictates—in either direction.
Be the beautiful person you are. The rest will take care of itself.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:42 AM :: 2 Submissives [+]
The Loneliness
I've sung her hymn.
She in turn has lured me with her song.
I have felt it everywhere.
Neither laughter nor tears nor unsane behavior will make the song stop.
It is a constant ringing in my ears.
It is a constant vision of that grey, cloudless sky—neither light nor dark. The horizon unbroken. No wind. No sound.
Just me.
The terror of consciousness, perhaps.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:26 AM :: Submit. [+]
April 18, 2005
BabyDom
I know I have a lot to learn. I'm not so much a fool to think I know it all, or even enough…
But I will not me manipulated by you. Pull at my animal lust, then mock me for it? For your gratification? You're now better than me because you've discovered that I lust for beauty? That I ache for connection in my soul?
Am am who I am, and beneath it all I am a human animal—apelike though it may be.
If you do not want what I have, that is your choice. But I do not give with expectations, nor would I accept anything returned. Use it for your benefit or discard it. It's your choice.
It has always been for you to choose.
What do you choose?
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:25 PM :: 2 Submissives [+]
April 3, 2005
Doc? When I Take These Pills…
Why is my libido so blah?
Where the fuck did it go?
I miss it.
I'm trying to think of when it changed so dramatically. I suppose it could be a thousand things. A thousand things in my life have changed lately.
I refuse to believe that it's because I'm older. I feel like it went out like a lightbulb.
When I was on Wellbutrin, I was having a lot of difficulty with mood swings. But I also felt like lust was more more consistently present.
Ah. Here were are. That helps to explain some things! Well now! Perfect! (bitter sarcasm)
Further research indicates that while the Depakote I take might put my libido back in a more humanly normal range, Effexor actually takes things down a notch. But I'm not bitter. Also—I know I can't believe everything I read on the intarweb…
I hate to take more pills, but I don't want to give up the amount of 'normalcy' I've been able to achieve recently either. Damn!
I guess I do have some things to talk about the next time I see my doctor.
"Well, I'd like to be more pervy…"
Ain't life grand?
[+] Posted by Sinner at 2:05 AM [+]
April 2, 2005
I Know
I think too much.
All the same,
You wouldn't believe how many words I deleted.
That's it.
You say you want to know what I'm thinking.
You lie.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:28 AM :: Submit. [+]
March 23, 2005
Beautiful One
Do you know how I crave you?
How I long to touch you
In long caresses?
How I need to slap your bare skin?
How I want your gasps and screams and coos?
My filthy Angel…
My slutty good girl…
You make me very happy.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:39 AM :: 2 Submissives [+]
March 11, 2005
Breathe
Funny… I bought it tonight, too.
Although Woody's not my type.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 5:13 AM :: Submit. [+]
No Trip
Unless you count spending two nights with my parents a trip.
Well, I did like all of my laundry. It was the sort of situation where I had been buying clothes instead of washing them.
Yeah.
Such a male.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:40 AM :: 2 Submissives [+]
March 5, 2005
Templar?
Masonic?
Dammit!
I've fogotten the key!
Did I ever know it?
[+] Posted by Sinner at 3:02 AM :: Submit. [+]
March 2, 2005
Sometimes, When We Talk…
Well, I get pictures in my head.
I feel you.
As you slide over me.
Baby,
Yes.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:05 PM [+]
February 25, 2005
Downtown
Spreading you wide.
Devouring you.
Finding the right place to put my tongue. And then moving it there again and again.
When you come… I want it to last.
And I want to do it again.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:38 PM :: 3 Submissives [+]
February 22, 2005
I Wanted to Touch You
From the moment I first saw you.
Did not want to be needy, demanding, forward, an octopus.
Always in the back of my mind: Who will see? Who will note something unusual and ask later?
My detachment and aloofness is my mask for fear.
I may have heard this twice in my life: "You look happy!"
That, Angel, is a treasure.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 6:58 PM [+]
February 14, 2005
Valentine's Day
Kisses, Angel!
And especially warm greetings to those who put themselves on my map. ;)
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:13 AM :: 2 Submissives [+]
February 11, 2005
Lace and Tracery
A single color would not be enough.
They would be iridescent.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:17 AM :: 1 Submissive [+]
February 5, 2005
No Fair!
Using fake email addresses...
If you need a gmail account for anonymity, let me know. I can get you one.
And the cool thing is, I'll never tell.
sou11355 is my email address at gmail.com.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:13 AM [+]
January 21, 2005
Good Girl!
So deliciously naughty!
First I want you over my knee.
Then, if you're a really bad girl, you'll get a reward!
[+] Posted by Sinner at 4:58 AM :: 1 Submissive [+]
January 20, 2005
Just the Stockings
And the heels.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:22 PM [+]
January 19, 2005
I Would Love to See
You.
In black stockings and heels.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 5:47 PM :: 2 Submissives [+]
January 14, 2005
My Key
I'm think about getting into your lock.
And tickling your tumblers.
Until you release.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:33 AM :: 1 Submissive [+]
January 12, 2005
All I Really Want To Know Is
Is it long enough, baby?
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:42 PM :: 3 Submissives [+]
Expecting It
No one likes a pushover.
Come here and push.
So I can push back.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 3:23 AM :: Submit. [+]
January 6, 2005
They Were Only Your Words
But I was on my knees, stroking myself, reading you in.
I saw you looking into my eyes, my cock lying on your tongue as you coaxed it. Milked it. Teased it.
You wanted me to come for you.
And I came.
And came.
Jets of come spurting from me.
They were your words.
But I came.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 3:19 AM :: 1 Submissive [+]
January 5, 2005
My Sweet Pet
How patient you have been!
I'm sorry if it felt like I was testing you. I wasn't.
Sometimes I get caught up in the beauty of your struggle. Your desire to be perfect. Your desire to please. How powerfully it affects you.
Every bit as much as I admire the curve of your neck as you kneel, waiting.
Come to me.
Slowly.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 2:42 AM :: Submit. [+]
January 4, 2005
We've Got a Thing That's Called Gmail Love
I have six invitations left.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 10:26 AM :: Submit. [+]
January 3, 2005
Kisses
I'm finally back in town.
I missed you.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:52 AM :: Submit. [+]
December 30, 2004
Poetess
Did you know I have your birthday marked in my calendar?
And I watched the day arrive. And I hoped it was good to you.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 2:39 AM :: Submit. [+]
December 28, 2004
The Highly Anticipated Deluge of Comments Did Not Appear
Nevertheless, I love you still.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:54 PM :: Submit. [+]
I Worship at the Altar of Creation
I offer my essence, that I may be embraced.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:52 PM :: Submit. [+]
December 14, 2004
You Know...
I was checking you out, too.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:14 AM :: Submit. [+]
Question For You
How many bloggers are you?
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:51 AM :: Submit. [+]
December 13, 2004
I See You
Checking me out.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 4:19 PM :: Submit. [+]
December 7, 2004
You Already Know The Way
Tap my anger.
That is the well from which springs my desire to subdue.
Cruelty and coldness can be yours, for a simmer.
Why I enjoy giving.
Bonds a little too tight?
Does that hurt?
Do you trust me?
Answer me.
Doesn't that feel good?
Answer me.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 5:17 PM :: 1 Submissive [+]
December 5, 2004
Don't Have Anything Nice to Say?
Well, then... Come here and sit in my lap.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 10:43 PM :: 3 Submissives [+]
December 4, 2004
Lasher
Will you call upon the force of my lust?
Will you summon my fury?
Lightning strikes of sensation?
You would open yourself to my fuck?
To sheets of sweat?
To my torrents?
'Til the final thunderclap?
Wear heels.
Good girl!
[+] Posted by Sinner at 2:38 AM :: Submit. [+]
December 2, 2004
The Questions So Far
These are some of the questions I've been asked recently, which I am thinking of including in my 100 things.
01. What is your favorite food?
02. Where do you live?
03. Who do you write about?
04. What makes you hard?
05. How old are you?
06. What is your favorite spice?
07. Silk or flannel sheets?
08. What part of a woman is most appealing?
09. What makes me shiver?
10. What is the most alluring fragrance on a woman?
11. Warm bath or steaming hot shower?
12. Stay out of the rain or play in it?
13. What color do you feel the most and why?
14. What musical instrument pulls at you the most?
15. Skinny dipping in a lake or hot tubbing in the mountains?
16. Vacation for luxury - where and why?
17. Vacation for purpose or to help others - where and why?
18. Why pink?
19. Are you still inhibited?
20. Which is better, being free and dating multiple girls, or being in a really excellent monogamous relationship?
21. When you touch yourself, do you use one hand or both?
22. Do you like to be begged?
23. What sounds do you make when you cum?
[+] Posted by Sinner at 1:08 PM :: 7 Submissives [+]
December 1, 2004
Sometimes I Wonder
If you are real.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:51 AM :: 1 Submissive [+]
November 27, 2004
I Stayed Up Late
Thinking about you on your knees.
Thinking about ordering you to spread yourself for me.
Thinking about stuffing my cock into your hot little twat.
Thinking about putting my cock into your mouth and rubbing off all of that slutty lipstick.
Thinking about making you play with your pussy while I come onto your tits.
You're my good girl.
You make me very happy.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 2:11 AM :: 1 Submissive [+]
November 25, 2004
Giving Thanks For:
You.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 11:48 PM :: Submit. [+]
November 22, 2004
I Love Your Hunger
It oozes from you.
It permeates what you say and do.
I have hunger too.
Let's feed.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 2:16 PM :: 1 Submissive [+]
November 19, 2004
Butterflies?
I had fantasies about holding you down—face down.
And pulling your pants over the curve of your ass.
And sliding those slutty panties down just out of the way.
And finding that hot little wet pussy betraying you.
No you say?
Then why can I enter you with my fingers like this?
Tell me no.
Call me a fucker while I hold you down.
Tell me you hate it when you're moving your hips.
I hear you.
But I'm not listening.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:47 PM :: 8 Submissives [+]
November 18, 2004
You Want to Hurt Me?
You would strike me? With a closed fist? With an open hand?
How would you rage if I caught your arm before you connected, and I didn't let go? Would you fight me? Do you promise?
Because then I would relish holding you down.
Fight me. I want to take you.
No, Poetess, I never forgot.
[+] Posted by Sinner at 12:19 AM :: 3 Submissives [+]